Friday, July 07, 2006

Roro

Its late and I'm tired. Roro's got be worried lately, but I'm trying very hard not to be overprotective or paranoid. We are looking into getting him tested for pdd. It is a series of developmental disorders that include autism. I guess I'll include a more detailed update later.


Sunday, July 02, 2006

A long road to hoe ...


I love my sons, as different as they are, each one is unique & special. Its hard to describe how they have each touched and enriched my life in different ways. We know since Rowan was a young infant that he was .. well different. He is exceptionally bright, but different in a lot of ways from his brother. If you read back through my blogs in the last two years you'll see this has been a recurring topic. As different as they are I never really thought anything was wrong, except at one point I thought maybe he had a hearing problem. You see I would call his name over & over and he wouldn't respond. I would tell him simple things and he wouldn't respond. No was never in his vocabulary, and that is usually one of they first few word a kid says and repeats, but not Rowan. I'd clap behind him and he wouldn't flinch. Yet he loves music and if he is in his room and his favorite show "Jack's Big Music Show" comes on in the living room he will come running. He can hear a bag of chips or a piece of candy being opened behind a closed door. So how can he have a hearing problem, right? We called it being stubborn, focused, single minded, ect. We laughed about it. Rowan is 2 1/2, he counts backwards & forwards, can spell & write his first name, but he won't play with other children. He won't communicate he wants a drink, or that he is wet or hungry. It is only in the last month that he has begun to hold eye contact with us, give any kind of consistent affection or acknowledgement and greet me & John when we arrive home from work and still shows no real distress when we leave. Some times I feel and think I am exaggerating our situation. But I cant deny the many times other people, strangers and family, that have asked me about him. Why doesn't he play with others ect? We called it independent, we called him a loner, but while he may be a lot of those thing, I can't deny its become apparent something is wrong.